Something to work on...

I hate commitment of basically any kind. The only thing I have really ever committed to in my life is friendships. I mean I even hate signing apartment leases because it means I have live in a certain place for a predetermined amount time. And lets not even start on my lack/fear of commitment in relationships with significant others.

I guess I am just a free spirit through and through. I have never liked to be tied down to anything and therefore avoid commitment like the plague.

This also causes me to be a very indecisive person. Or maybe because I'm indecisive, it causes my fear/hatred of commitment. Either way, it's just how I've always been.

But if this is the case, how am I suppose to decide anything important in my life and commit to any changes? I think and think and think about something before actually making the decision which wastes a lot of time. I just can't seem to make big decisions any other way. I don't want to make the wrong decision.

So my indecisiveness and fear of commitment sometimes hold me back from things, but I don't know how to change it. I want to make major changes in my life and need to get around these things in order to make things happen. If not, I'm going to be stuck wondering 'what if' for a long time and I don't want to live like that.

Peace.

?

My mind is so clouded with confusion.

I don't know what to do.

Life is hard.

Hawaiian love.

I recently returned from the great state of Hawai'i and wanted to share a few things I learned or noticed while there. So enjoy!

*14 lessons/fun facts about Hawai'i and my trip*

1. Sand is a great exfoliant as it tends to get everywhere.
2. Volcanic ash stains unless you use oxy-clean.
3. Pineapple tastes 12 times better in Hawai'i (as with all fruit).
4. Bars stay open until 4 am.
5. Hawai'i has the longest yellow lights ever. (This blew my mind.)
6. People in the military are cooler than you would expect.
7. Hiking is better in Hawai'i because there are no snakes and very few bugs.
8. Hona ho.
9. It's possible to get kicked out of Cheesecake Factory...even on your birthday.
10. Jellyfish can shut down things there just like a blizzard in the Midwest.
11. Aloha means 'hello', 'good-bye', and 'I love you'. (How awesome is that?)
12. Dirty Shirley's are delicious.
13. Mostly all of the street names are crazy Hawaiian words which make traffic reports kind of hilarious.
14. Australians are sloppy kissers.
    

There's more, so I'll try to add them as they come to mind....

eeny meeny miny moe

I feel like I'm at a crossroads in my life. There are at least 5 forks in the road that I could travel down but how do I know which one to pick?

Also, before I can even get to those paths it feels like there is a wall I have to get over or break through. Nothing like a challenge I guess.

Oh life, why do you have to be so difficult right out of the chute?

On a related note, the twenties seem to be living up to their overrated-ness. Wah-wah. At least not all expectations are let-downs.