I know this one's a bit cheesy, but I love Lady A.
7.29.2011
7.17.2011
highlights.
Here's a look at some of the things that happened this week...
- My neck vertebrae are really out of whack. Therefore I will be spending a lot of time and money at the chiropractor. Sad.
- Right after receiving a pretty dirty, explicit text (it was a mutual exchange), my phone froze up and I had to take it to at&t. Not sure if the man saw the text, but he did fix my phone. Yay?
- I got to talk to my brother! On the phone! I miss him.
- I cruised around in style in a golf cart at jazzfest. Fun! Thanks B!
7.11.2011
Letting go.
Letting go. It's part of life. Often necessary, but not always easy. I have long since considered myself a master of it. After all, detachment to some people or situations is no more than a blink of the eye for me, especially in recent years.
There are a few relationships in my life that need letting go or are even in the process. But there is one relationship in particular that I just need to be done with. I know I've thought I let it go numerous times in the past, but the truth is I haven't. I confused actually letting go with power. I often felt in control of this relationship, as unhealthy as it was/is, and that control justified it in my mind. I saw it for what it was/is and used it to my advantage. That seemed like some form of letting go since at first I felt powerless with this person. I had switched it around. I had won. Or so I thought.
But alas, the relationship has continued on in one tumultuous form or another for some odd years and each time it reaches a climax, I see it for what it really is: an unhealthy relationship that is holding me back. I might feel in control most of the time, but it's just a shallow power struggle. It's a game we've both liked to play. I think it's time to truly work on letting this one go though.
Wish me luck.
There are a few relationships in my life that need letting go or are even in the process. But there is one relationship in particular that I just need to be done with. I know I've thought I let it go numerous times in the past, but the truth is I haven't. I confused actually letting go with power. I often felt in control of this relationship, as unhealthy as it was/is, and that control justified it in my mind. I saw it for what it was/is and used it to my advantage. That seemed like some form of letting go since at first I felt powerless with this person. I had switched it around. I had won. Or so I thought.
But alas, the relationship has continued on in one tumultuous form or another for some odd years and each time it reaches a climax, I see it for what it really is: an unhealthy relationship that is holding me back. I might feel in control most of the time, but it's just a shallow power struggle. It's a game we've both liked to play. I think it's time to truly work on letting this one go though.
Wish me luck.
7.05.2011
No more.
I really need to get my crap together. No more waiting around.
(I hope that if I type it, it will motivate me to make it happen. Nothing like trying reverse psychology on yourself.)
(I hope that if I type it, it will motivate me to make it happen. Nothing like trying reverse psychology on yourself.)
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