I hate commitment of basically any kind. The only thing I have really ever committed to in my life is friendships. I mean I even hate signing apartment leases because it means I have live in a certain place for a predetermined amount time. And lets not even start on my lack/fear of commitment in relationships with significant others.
I guess I am just a free spirit through and through. I have never liked to be tied down to anything and therefore avoid commitment like the plague.
This also causes me to be a very indecisive person. Or maybe because I'm indecisive, it causes my fear/hatred of commitment. Either way, it's just how I've always been.
But if this is the case, how am I suppose to decide anything important in my life and commit to any changes? I think and think and think about something before actually making the decision which wastes a lot of time. I just can't seem to make big decisions any other way. I don't want to make the wrong decision.
So my indecisiveness and fear of commitment sometimes hold me back from things, but I don't know how to change it. I want to make major changes in my life and need to get around these things in order to make things happen. If not, I'm going to be stuck wondering 'what if' for a long time and I don't want to live like that.
Peace.
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