alone.

I've been pretty off my game these days. Normal actions feel forced. It's like I'm wandering around in the dark, going only by feel. Is this what the next 12+ months are going to be like?

I guess I just didn't expect to be affected so much. It's so hard when you see your family being affected in the same way. I really don't know how to handle the situation, but just try to keep it together because in my mind, I think that someone (i.e. me) has to be the strong one. But what happens when I crumble too? What if I'm not strong enough? Who's going to be there for me?

That's a scary thought. Sometimes I just feel so alone and don't know how to fill the void. Maybe it is time for a cat or something.