alone.

I've been pretty off my game these days. Normal actions feel forced. It's like I'm wandering around in the dark, going only by feel. Is this what the next 12+ months are going to be like?

I guess I just didn't expect to be affected so much. It's so hard when you see your family being affected in the same way. I really don't know how to handle the situation, but just try to keep it together because in my mind, I think that someone (i.e. me) has to be the strong one. But what happens when I crumble too? What if I'm not strong enough? Who's going to be there for me?

That's a scary thought. Sometimes I just feel so alone and don't know how to fill the void. Maybe it is time for a cat or something.

...

I need to be talked off the ledge today.

Man oh man. Things have got to get better soon.

eyes wide open.

Sometimes things happen that are real eye openers. That's been the theme as of late so I'm running with it.

Universe, I know I'm a little slow but I hear you. It's time to shake things up.

hazy.

I often wonder where life is going to take me and sometimes if it's even somewhere I want to go. I try to be patient and let things unfold, but sometimes it's frustrating. I hate looking to the future and not seeing a clear picture or even a picture at all. All I see is haze.

I mean I think I know what I want to find through that haze, but lets be honest, those thoughts can change on a daily basis. I just don't understand how people can know what they want. Am I really that indecisive? I thought I just liked to have options. But what happens when things get stagnant and then you don't have a clear option in front of you? I kind of feel like I'm in that place.

I think I let it go too far as now I am just frustrated. Why didn't I better prepare myself for this possibility? Why does everything have to be a learning lesson?

Well, just some thoughts as I wander aimlessly through my life. I think I need a life-changer; I mean a real core-shaker.

yay.

Just a little check-in... I really have to update my 101 in 1001 as I have some more things to cross off. Yay me!

I also have a new project with at tentative launch date of May 1, so get excited people!

Otherwise, I'm just truckin' along. I'll have a longer update soon!

more than words.

Totally rocked this song at karaoke last Thursday. Not by myself, but as a duet with a murse, so I can't cross it off my 101 in 1001. (wah wah.)

I just can't bring myself to sing up there all by myself. Duets are just more my style. But nonetheless, it was super fun. :)

So enjoy this blast from the past...

Feeling fresh.

Well I am feeling renewed and ready to tackle another week.

Thanks to my friends and family for making me laugh and for making my life worth it all.

Love love love.