It's been a long time since I've updated my progress on my 101 in 1001. I'm happy to report that I knocked 5 more things off my list. Numbers 17, 51, 76, 94, and 97 are all history.
That being said, I still have 93 to go. Yikes.
6.16.2011
6.14.2011
here we go.
Some days are better than others. Some are really tough. It amazes me how much I am affected, but it is evident in the tears that I often have to fight back. Maybe I just need to let them out and have a good cry over it. But the waves of emotion are intense and I don't think a cry will help that. I feel weak and I hate feeling weak. And lets not even get started on the bouts of insomnia.
I know, or at least hope, it will all get better with time. It's just hard. I need some distractions.
Sunday was a day that I would not wish upon anyone. To be around that much emotion was a lot to take in. I guess it is comforting to know that others are going through the same thing, but still...I never thought I'd have to go through this. Life sure isn't fair sometimes.
I know, or at least hope, it will all get better with time. It's just hard. I need some distractions.
Sunday was a day that I would not wish upon anyone. To be around that much emotion was a lot to take in. I guess it is comforting to know that others are going through the same thing, but still...I never thought I'd have to go through this. Life sure isn't fair sometimes.
6.06.2011
Le sigh...
I have so many things going through my mind. I had a feeling June was going to be like this and it's turning out to be true.
This week is crazy and probably one of the toughest I've ever had to go through. I've been dreading it for so long and now it's here, so I just have to face it. Life sure sucks sometimes.
I'm hoping to get some good news this week to help balance everything, but trying not to desperately rely on it.
This week is crazy and probably one of the toughest I've ever had to go through. I've been dreading it for so long and now it's here, so I just have to face it. Life sure sucks sometimes.
I'm hoping to get some good news this week to help balance everything, but trying not to desperately rely on it.
6.03.2011
6.01.2011
alone.
I've been pretty off my game these days. Normal actions feel forced. It's like I'm wandering around in the dark, going only by feel. Is this what the next 12+ months are going to be like?
I guess I just didn't expect to be affected so much. It's so hard when you see your family being affected in the same way. I really don't know how to handle the situation, but just try to keep it together because in my mind, I think that someone (i.e. me) has to be the strong one. But what happens when I crumble too? What if I'm not strong enough? Who's going to be there for me?
That's a scary thought. Sometimes I just feel so alone and don't know how to fill the void. Maybe it is time for a cat or something.
I guess I just didn't expect to be affected so much. It's so hard when you see your family being affected in the same way. I really don't know how to handle the situation, but just try to keep it together because in my mind, I think that someone (i.e. me) has to be the strong one. But what happens when I crumble too? What if I'm not strong enough? Who's going to be there for me?
That's a scary thought. Sometimes I just feel so alone and don't know how to fill the void. Maybe it is time for a cat or something.
5.16.2011
5.02.2011
eyes wide open.
Sometimes things happen that are real eye openers. That's been the theme as of late so I'm running with it.
Universe, I know I'm a little slow but I hear you. It's time to shake things up.
Universe, I know I'm a little slow but I hear you. It's time to shake things up.
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