I often wonder if I expect too little out of things. There are things that I do expect great things in, but with others I have more of a 'meh' attitude. What made me like this? Past experiences? Failures or successes?
I would probably blame it most on disappointment. It's a funny thing how you can be so optimistic and sure of something, but then it doesn't turn out the way you wanted it to or anticipated. Then comes the disappointment for me. I try not to dwell on it and think I deal with it and am moved on, but really I don't think I ever am. Because then a new situation arises and those past feelings of disappointment resurface and affect how I see things and react. Sometimes it would be nice to approach every situation with a completely open mind and have no triggers of the times where things didn't go according to plan.
Really my only expectation out of life right now is to be happy and to figure out what will make me happy.
I don't expect to make a lot of money. I hope to live comfortably, but we'll see. I still need to find a job and decide on a future career.
I don't expect to own a home, large, average, or small. I just always figured I would rent forever because I am never happy in one place for a long time and home purchases are long time commitments.
I expect to get married. This has to do more with the statistics...since 90-95% of Americans get married at some point in their lives, I would say the odds are against me, so I might as well expect nuptials at some point in my life.
I don't expect to have kids. I really don't think I am cut out for it and am just not the mothering type. I don't think I would be any good at it.
Looks like I don't expect pretty much the whole 'American dream' except for maybe the being happy part. So if the typical 'American dream' won't make me happy, I have to wonder what will. I don't know what I really want out of life and I suppose once I figure that out, I will know what will make me happy.
Is it weird that I have such low expectations for the things that most people probably expect as givens for their life?
It makes me wonder what I am actually living my life for.
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